Friday, July 3, 2009

Confusion of Prayer

So I have not really been a "follower" of Christianity for a year now almost. By no means do I denounce a God or a superior celestial Being, but I cannot bring myself to follow or believe in Christianity as it is today. I am not going to go into my full beleifs but I just do not hold any of it true for myself.

Yet I still do pray, not for myself, but for others. I am not saying this to sound like I don't care for myself or be self righteous, I don't pray for myself because I don't think I deserve it? if that makes since, but I will pray to God, assumingly the Christian one for others, who I know believe in Jesus and Christianity. I am not sure what this means for my psyche or whatnot, but I seem to acknolwedge that God is real for them and works in there life, otherwise I would not pray for them, yet not in mine? And I am again not saying I am abandoned, but maybe I feel guilty that I do not believe in the Christian God anymore, or maybe I believe in that God, but feel bad I do not believe in the faith carried out in his name.

idk, just pouring of thoughts as usual

9 comments:

t.hitch said...

some deep thoughts... i know exactly what you mean. in a way i think i am kind of going through the same thing...

cvn70 said...

Scotty

Ok you say you dont believe in the christian God anymore but youhave some belief in a higher being but isnt that higher being the same entity and th echristian god is simply the one described in the books of the chrurch you used to belong too

And yes it doesnt make any sense really for you to pray to a god you dont believe in so it that or are you mad at the christian god (church) and wont accept him anymore or what he was taught to you to be

and you are deserving of prayers as anyone esle btw whether or not you think so

take care and be safe

bob

Nicolas said...

in a way i really understand why one would do this

Lukas said...

Hi Scotty,

I just finished reading your Confusion of Prayer, and as t.hitch said, some of us went through the same thing. Or still are going.
I just wanna say that God loves you, no matter if you are gay or straight, it is not because of him i was feared to admit that I am gay, but because of some of my borthers and sisters (so you doesn´t really need to push aside believe in christian God). I mean lot of them still doesn´t know, but some of my closest friends know now, and also my dad, who, thank Lord, accpeted my almost without problems :)

To me personally really helped tihs video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k8cIhf-K-c&feature=related

You can watch it from the beginning (part one), but I skipped right to the point to story of one lad in my age. Yes, I´am Catholic, and I know you might be from other christian denomination, but as far i am concerned, it is not much of difference in gay issue.

So if you want, you can watch it, maybe it will hwelp you, it certainly helped me.

God bless,

Luke

Lukas said...

Hi Scotty,

I just finished reading your Confusion of Prayer, and as t.hitch said, some of us went through the same thing. Or still are going.
I just wanna say that God loves you, no matter if you are gay or straight, it is not because of him i was feared to admit that I am gay, but because of some of my borthers and sisters (so you doesn´t really need to push aside believe in christian God). I mean lot of them still doesn´t know, but some of my closest friends know now, and also my dad, who, thank Lord, accpeted my almost without problems :)

To me personally really helped tihs video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k8cIhf-K-c&feature=related

You can watch it from the beginning (part one), but I skipped right to the point to story of one lad in my age. Yes, I´am Catholic, and I know you might be from other christian denomination, but as far i am concerned, it is not much of difference in gay issue.

So if you want, you can watch it, maybe it will hwelp you, it certainly helped me.

God bless,

Luke

itachipain said...

according to my mom and my sister im drunk, but its my party and why would i be drunk...(anyway) I was thinking to myself, god loves you for who you are, and nobody can ever change that. Im sure he/she is looking at these other people thinking, "why don't they get the message that my love is infinite and i made you who you are." I have to admit im thinking the same thing anyway. But God's love is universe wide. he loves everything that he made. and i don't understand why these churches can't see that. Okay, i may be drunk, but i really do think that im 100% right. god loves you man. no matter who you are. he made you who you are. and if your comfortable with that, he is too.

Ryan said...

Scotty,
Ok so you are not sure... Remember just a few things. First of all, God (as the Christians believe in him) will always love you. That love is unconditional, unrelenting and unavoidable!

I have been gay all my life, and nothing made my life better than realizing that God was real (at the age of 15) and then realizing that he still loved me and that I was nto a lost cause just cuz I liked guys!

The traditional belief of Homo's are going to hell is thought to be somewhat outdated and inaccurate by most liberal Christians now-a-days.

The lifestyle some gay people live (the rampant sex, many partners, drugs, orgies and slutty) is what God views as sinful, not the loving, caring monogamous and good hearted relationships.

Remember that you are loved by others and by God no matter what you do and that God believes in you whether you believe in him or not.

Lots of love,
Ryan

LonelyBoy said...

I really do love your posts. They're always a joy to read!....
:D

Hiram said...

... nothing wrong with atheism ...

http://www.atheistnexus.org/forum/topics/useful-atheism-statistics

"No democracy is known to have combined strong religiosity and popular denial of evolution with high rates of societal health."